SADO MASO — THE TEST OF CONTINUITY

He woke up without knowing where he was.

It wasn’t the bed in his apartment, nor the sofa where he sometimes fell asleep watching documentaries at three in the morning. The ceiling was dark wood, with beams crossing the dimness like the ribs of some ancient animal. For a couple of seconds, just long enough for panic to form in his throat, he remembered nothing.

Then came the cold. The thin blanket they had left him. The nakedness.

And the weight in his chest, which was not pain or shame, but something worse: normality.

He sat up slowly. The room was small: a single bed, a nightstand, a window through which the grayish light of a mountain dawn came in. There was no sign of Raúl. No notes, no instructions, no trace of the previous night. Only the thick silence of a house that had spent decades swallowing secrets.

Marcos sat on the edge of the bed, his bare feet on the cold wood. His body didn’t hurt. No visible marks. No bruises to justify the intensity of what he had felt. And that, somehow, was the most disconcerting thing: the most exposed night of his life had left no physical evidence.

He got up, found his clothes folded on a chair by the door. Someone had gathered and arranged them while he slept. The gesture was almost domestic, and that was more disturbing than any act of violence.

He went out into the hallway. Daylight came in through a window at the end, and dust floated in the beam like particles suspended in time. He reached the room from the previous night. Empty. The ashes in the fireplace were cold. On the low table, a sheet of paper held down by an upside-down cup.

Marcos approached. He picked up the paper.

Don’t write to me. When I know you’ve arrived safely, I’ll write to you. If you write to me before then, I won’t answer.

No signature. No “good morning.” No “how did you wake up?”

He stared at the paper longer than necessary, as if the handwriting could reveal something to him. Then he folded it, put it in his pocket, grabbed his bag, and left. Without coffee. Without a goodbye. Without knowing if someone was watching him from some window.

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The journey back lasted two hours and forty minutes. The same curves. The same trees. The same silence on the radio. But now every kilometer took him farther from something that was already beginning to ache through its absence.

He arrived at his apartment at noon. He left the bag in the hallway and stood in the living room, looking at the things that were his: the sofa where he had taken a hundred naps, the bookshelf with the books he had read, the kitchen where he made coffee every morning. Everything was in its place. Everything was normal. And he felt like a ghost inside his own life.

The phone didn’t vibrate. He looked at it. Put it down. Looked at it again. Twenty minutes passed, then forty, then an hour and a half. Nothing.
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