how I became a transvestite 3

I woke up. Wow, what a day yesterday was. To be honest, I was too lazy to philosophize, so I just got comfortable, masturbated, and continued with my day.
About two weeks later, My Macho called me again, and I, once again, got nervous. I agreed to meet him, and we went to the same sex shop. He was watching transvestite movies again, and I was watching gay movies. I gave him a blowjob, he ejaculated in my mouth, and then he left. I stayed for a while, fantasizing (I didn't repeat the condom mistake, I didn't want to be reckless again), I ejaculated, and then I left. He was waiting outside, we walked a few blocks, sat down on a park bench, barely spoke, said our goodbyes, and he left.
This was the dynamic for a while, every two or three weeks. I was starting to feel like his lover, but not his, just his penis. There was nothing formal between us, just talking, blowjobs, and then he would leave. The idea started to form in my head that he only wanted sexual pleasure, that he probably had a girlfriend and did everything with her, and that occasionally, when he wanted a man, not a woman, he would look for me to give him a blowjob. I only told him that we should change sex shops because people had seen us several times at that one.
One of the days we went, I stood in front of the transvestite movies. Tall, long legs, beautiful faces, long hair, beautiful breasts, wide hips, narrow waist, wow. These transvestites were more beautiful than many women, but with a penis, and not just any penis, haha. That day, I changed my traditional movie for one with girls with penises, and I have to say that I gave Elzarpas a blowjob with a lot of pleasure, but now also inspired by the movie. They were like two very cool lesbians, in tight wedding dresses, they looked great. Then they took off their clothes and one was in a swimsuit (a swimsuit under a wedding dress?) and the other in a garter belt. They made love, they penetrated each other, there was lust, but also some tenderness. My Macho ejaculated, I ejaculated, we left, said our goodbyes, like always, but this time he gave me a timid kiss on the cheek. I didn't know how to react, it was nighttime, and there was almost no one on the street, but still, I felt both pleased and uncomfortable.
The next morning, I remembered the transsexual movie and masturbated thinking about them, it was like a new world for me, and I didn't dislike it.
The next time, the encounter with my lover was repeated, with a blowjob and a transvestite movie for me, but this time we talked a bit.
- I'm inviting you to a party.
- Party? (haha, my stupid response, typical).
- Yes, it's more like a gathering between some friends.
- Do you want me to go? (to be honest, I was almost panicked about going).
- Yes, it's something quiet, no drinking, just getting together and talking.
That didn't displease me, I don't have vices, and I dislike drunks, haha.
- Uh, well, it's just that I don't know if I can...