CHAPTER I

This account tries to come as close as possible to being a biography that is as accurate as possible of someone who really exists. Of course, not of his whole life; it focuses on his sexual development toward being a feminized bottom.

Andrés now sees himself, at 55 years old, as a complete whore. Despite being married, he knows himself to be a fucking fag, a slut, there to serve men always older than him.

However, this was not always exactly the case. From a coastal city in the north of Spain, not very far from France, he was the youngest of three siblings, the eldest a boy and the second a girl. He was a child who could be defined as “normal” or like any other, educated in a school run by priests, which was nearby, until he entered university. He was not a boarder; he went back and forth from home every day. At fifteen he did not think about, nor even imagine, sex between two males. At that time there was no internet and he did not have the slightest idea about anything.

Already studying at university, whenever he could, he used to go surfing in a very good area for it that was within a nudist beach. In the spring-summer months he was sometimes there until late and after finishing surfing he changed on the sand and watched the last people still on the beach walking around and leaving, most of them mature men.

Once, at twenty years old, after finishing surfing and returning to the shore, he saw two men making out, one sucking the other off. It caught his attention and he stared at them a lot. He had seen the one getting sucked on other occasions because he was a photography enthusiast; he took photos of the beach and of the boys surfing. He was about 45 years old, it was September, the man had a good sun tan, and he noticed that he had a very good cock. In a certain way, more or less without fully acknowledging it, he envied the one sucking such a good cock and the pleasure that was obvious he was feeling while doing it.

The next day, when he came out, he saw that only one of them was there, the one who had been getting sucked the day before. The tanned man with the good cock was walking on the sand with a half-erection. When he saw Andrés looking at him, he started masturbating and gestured for him to come closer. At first the boy ignored him and kept changing, but the man kept gesturing and kept jerking off without taking his eyes off him. In the end Andrés hesitated and ended up approaching just to touch it, and he also ended up jerking him off. He took off the clothes he had half put on as well and began jerking himself off with one hand while continuing to jerk the man off with the other. Then Josean, because that was what he was called, told him to suck him off and he did. It was never the other way around; he never sucked the boy off. Nothing else happened, that was all, but that was his first time with a man.

From that day on he changed; he stopped having qualms about jerking of...