How my stepfather and his son started using me when I was twenty years old.

I am Bruno, and my story begins when I turn 20 years old....and that day my mother introduces me to who would be her future partner, her boyfriend, who immediately tells me... from now on, I am your stepfather and my name is Horacio. What caught my attention immediately... was the speed with which he used the term stepfather, his firm, strong, confident, and clear voice. Also... the way my mother behaved at that moment, looking at the floor silently. But more striking is how he looked at me, kept looking at me, and managed almost naturally to get me to react.... at some point... lowering my head and looking at the ground.... just like my mother.

At that moment.... I knew almost like a revelation.... that from then on, it wouldn't matter so much what I wanted, but what Horacio wanted from me would be decisive. I realized, thanks to his superior gaze, his superior voice.... that in front of him, I would be what I am.... a submissive inferior. I hope he gives me the opportunity to serve him, I hope he uses me, I thought.... and I not only thought it, but I presented myself, and it would be that way, and I wasn't wrong. But what's most curious, and what I felt as.... incredibly provocative, incredibly attractive, and.... it opened my mind very strongly.... was the way he.... and I remember it verbatim.... broke the silence after looking at me with great determination. Meanwhile, my mother was silent and so was I. He said, "In an hour, my son Gaspar will arrive, he is five years older than you, and it's your duty to obey him." I said... with a bit of spontaneity, ahhh Gaspar like the Magi King.... it wasn't conscious provocation.... it wasn't a necessary step for Horacio to hasten the process in an astonishing way.... but.... Horacio's response, forceful, extensive, detailed, firm, and unappealable.... well.... that response left a mark on me for the next ten years.... until they both moved to Germany. I am Argentine.