Shaping Jose: A week of chastity (III)

I could say that I'm a manipulator and that my reaction to his loss of control was only intended to put on a show to make it clear who was in charge and to be able to continue tightening the screws to turn him into my sex slave, but I would be lying.

As I went down in the elevator, I started thinking about his reaction. Had I gone too far? Had I taken advantage of him? He seemed comfortable and excited when we were at his house. I didn't understand that passive-aggressive reaction at the end.

"Come up, dude," he asked me via WhatsApp as I was leaving the building, "and let's talk about it."

I didn't know what to say. I've already mentioned that there were times when I thought about the asymmetry of the relationship. Although sexually, that had led to some dreamy days, I didn't like the idea of doing something that he wasn't comfortable with.

"Have you enjoyed these days? Or did you just fulfill the bet out of commitment and didn't know how to back down?" I asked him.

"I've had a good time," he responded. "It's just frustrating not to cum, damn it. I'm really horny!" He added an emoji with a sad face. "This is new for me."

For me too, I added. "I don't want you to do anything you don't want to do. I don't want you to do anything just to please me. I want you to do what you do because you enjoy it. Seriously, if you didn't like what we've been doing, take off the device."

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Really," I assured him. But I knew that wasn't the problem.

I'm not going to deceive you either. I wanted him not to remove the device or jerk off because I was discovering that I loved that sexual asymmetry. I wanted him to like it too because what I was experiencing those days was driving me crazy, but I wasn't planning to hold anyone hostage in a situation they didn't want to be in. Yes, I was aware that if he removed the device, he would probably end up leaving me in a few weeks, but that had nothing to do with not having followed the bet, but rather with the fact that he would have discovered that, sexually, we didn't quite fit. Each person likes what they like, and I was already at an age where I was discovering that if the other person didn't like the same sexual things as me or wasn't open to experimenting with them... the relationship would ultimately fail. On my part, I wouldn't prolong the agony.

"I'll try," he responded after a few minutes.

"It's not necessary, seriously," I said when I had already arrived at my house. "If you don't like it or feel bad, take it off. I don't want you to do anything out of commitment or because you feel obligated, okay?" I insisted.

"I'll try," he repeated.

My head was spinning, and although I felt pleased that he apparently wanted to try, if that was due to emotional dependence, I preferred to let him go. Finally, I ended the conversation by adding the following.

"Whatever you want. Tom...